Today....my wrist began to look normal again...

Today....my lovely beautiful son was with me...and would not leave me...and would not let me out of his sight...

Today...I managed to hug my husband...but still recoiled...

Today...I told my daughter I loved her so much and that she was very special...

Today...I realised I have special friends here who I will never meet but will write to...

Today...I almost crashed the car into another on the school run...it scared me...but I was not in the wrong...

Today I spoke to my lover...far away...but he wants me and alcohol opens the closed door...

Today, I realised the power of chocolate...

Today, I saw one of my students delivering papers next door and he stared at my car and my house probably wondering where the fuck his teacher was....

Today, I spoke to one of the closest friends I will ever have...she is loyal and dear to me...

Today, I did sleep for some hours...when my husband came home...then I felt guilty...

Today, I had to recount the events of exactly a week ago...I felt numb...I felt blase...so what...still here aren't I? What's the big deal?...

Today, I panicked and floundered about returning to work and people's loyalty...or lack of it...

Today, I watched the lovely bottoms of the England Rugby Team and cheered when they won...

Today I lived. Today I feel fragile. Today I just ...felt...