Today, I turned down a rampant horny fuck from a previous lover...I felt relieved...but sorry...for him...still relieved.

Today I watched some porn and had three self induced orgasms whilst at the keyboard.

Today I wore no underwear.

Today, I giggled whilst watching This Morning...

Today, I read some of my book..I like it.

Today, I wrote to my union people at region who are so distant and unemotional.

Today, I cried. I feel isolated and angry.

Today I smiled and wrote to someone who serenaded me..or tried to with The Who...and then attempted to act so cool about a Mr Darcy reference!

Today, I managed to think and react and write and engage with someone in a positive, intelligent and sexy way...even though his keyboard was in danger of becoming....sticky!!!

Today, I felt natural and sensuous.

Today, I was contacted by a person who loved my bottom...who I sent pics to over a year ago...but I could not remember him. I had no desire to.

Today, I washed my beautiful son in his bubbly bath and read him two bed time stories.

Today, I collected my daughter from school and imprinted the feeling of her hand inside mine...forever.

Today, my husband asked me why I was crying. I struggled to speak.

Today , I watched the squirrel doing acrobatics in my back garden.

Today, I realised what a complete and utter bastard G was and told him so...well I e mailed.

Today, I shared my desires to have my underwear ripped off, to be bent over, to have my hips held, to be deeply had...wearing my boots!

Today, I found out how tall he was.

Today, I scrubbed myself hard in the shower to wash away anything ugly; anything bad; anything unclean.

Today I checked out my lovely pussy wax...mmm...still delicious.

Today I spoke to a friend who phoned and who had no idea what I did 4 hours after our last conversation two weeks ago. She was shocked and angry and lovely.

Today, I thought about Darcy...again.

Today next door's paper boy walked over and asked me when I would be back...we need you!

Today, I wallowed in self love, self pity, self righteousness, self anger and still a raging thirsty desire for complete, solid, firm, warm, chemistry-driven, lustfully charged, mind-blowing fucking...but with feeling too.

Today...just a day.