right...where was I...
well, I literally was caught more or less off guard...and what made it all a bit panicky was I had just been exchanging naughty texts with Mansion Man...yes that's the name for this one...still not met...but not only texts..but I had been doing some rather saucy pics for him on my Nokia N73!
So...smiling, in what I thought was a seductive wifely way, I managed to stash the phone down the settee, thank god it was on silent and await his cumbersome advances...which AGAIN were...about...oooohhh...30 seconds...but, he did try to find my clit this time. I actually laid back, slid my knickers off and masterbated infront of him...and continued as he did the old marital humping...otherwise the clit entourage would have refused to perform!
Having my eyes closed, I was still rather aroused from Mansion Man's rather rude and very sexy exciting thoughts and desires...I did not need to use my imagination!
Lasted a few minutes...and I felt glad in a way. Glad it had happened...only third time since May!!! Yes really...first time since G and I was happy that hub thought he'd performed well due to my self-induced orgasm.
I sound awful, I know...but he was happy and I could tell he felt rather pleased with himself and I did not want to take that away from him.
Then...off he went, back to bed...

We work rather well together as a team...in a non sexual way I think...especially with the children...but sexually I really struggle to be close. I am no longer attracted or aroused by him..there is no sexual chemistry.

And I am learning how to live with that now without causing too many waves in the marital ocean.