Prettyintelligentprincess

Today...my boy was smiley when I left him, my girl too.
Today, I felt the room was mine...little Plurals did too.
Today, told them about the war 91-95...they felt every word.
The newspapers glued on the ground...with blood
The female corpse in the river...watch still on her wrist..
A child's shoe..
Cannisters of water,
Loaves of bread...and running...
Mass graves and watching darkness...

Today, they felt the horror and melted,
Today they learnt that Torvill and Dean had won their Gold in a decaying stadium where our boys..and girls...had slept,
Today they felt they could answer and respond.

Today, I knew I was in control.
Today, they did too.
Today...I have no lover.
Today I have not responded ...again...to MM...I just can't...
Today I have read and re read news from The Fan...
Today Mr Estate Agent asked me if I loved him.
Today, as in all other days , I said no.
Today, I accused him again of drunk bravery and he has retreated...

Tonight, I fell asleep when I came home...so drained...children busy...they brought me gifts.
Tonight, I missed him...
Tonight, I think of what may be....

My room.
My keys.
My desk.
My noticeboard...
And it's being filled slowly...with my identity....
lovely little Plurals love it...and so do I.

Angel is back Monday...oh joy. Power and reputation...in fact I should say our reputation IS our power.

Enveloped inside the four walls of bright minds. Beautiful.

Top Authority called me in today. Just lovely.
Supportive.
Frank.
Kind.
Professional.
Compassionate!

He is a very lovely...dare I say...absolutely sexy man...but...the Top guy and he's got my respect..I believe he has mine too.

In fact...there was a point when I knew if I achieved eye contact...I would cry...so..I didn't at that point and held it together!

Still a battle in parts...
The place is a wreck,
A bombsite...
No order,
No control,

It maketh me smile!!!

And I stand back...
I watch..
I wait..
And see.