I've been away from here a while...so busy and so determined...
I have worked so hard I have made my eyes sore...I have done so much I have proved so much and the future is rosy....more of The Return...later.

I have missed him.
So much.
I wrote and posted provocative Deneuve and someone unwittingly did not come close...but ...pinpointed...his blog...

I still yearn and yesterday a fleeting text at the end of my working day...still surrounded by colleagues...

14 days to go...

My heart jumped and I attempted a state of normality.
I have had no personal..no private time and I yearn for him so much ...he is interwoven amongst the thoughts and between my brainwaves...

And so...tonight...I began to read him...not just now..but the way he was before...

I have resisted and resisted as I know him from our shared textual moments only...our shared e-messages only and that...that will still remain nurtured inside my mind.
Tonight I viewed and I watched as a voyeur and I enjoyed his words and understood his passion and his needs...understood him.

It is his passion that is so striking and so endearing. Never...have I encountered a passion as deep and as articulate as mine.
I believe now..I may indeed have.
I still wait in the wings and will still be the Original One, the Passionate One, the Rather Sexy and Dirty One....
in her own right
and not in the shadow of beautiful moments already had.

He is eloquent and articulate in mind as well as in body.
I look forward to our noisy and hard descriptive pages of gorgeous fun in that square space of time...
In the last on the left...