Utterly exhausted.
Managed the first day back at Building Of Betrayal and hit the ground running. New day...actually a new year in the grand scheme of things...but a full and completely exhausting day; no lunch; one member of staff down; huge meeting after the day...then more work...
Left late..the last to leave yet again, collected the children amongst the guilt and enjoyed their banter and their fighting...I'm impressed with their level of diction and interactive fluency. Wonderful.
Arrived home and the smell of the freshly mowed lawn greeted us; hub so good with the garden.
Too late, too tired for cooking. Family takeaway and more banter; trying to keep Budding Vet relaxed about tomorrow.
The last thing I remember, lying in the solitude of the conservatory, just relaxing after drinking my coffee -Sportacus dragging in a blanket, three times as big as him, and covering me.
'Night night mummy. Don't let 'betbugs' bite...' A big sticky kiss and a tight hug...then I slept...utterly deeply for over two hours!!!! AAAAaaRRRRGGGGGHHHH! I missed Springwatch for goodness sake!!!
I feel I'm drowning with work, but it's only the first day my sensible side says - and I need to be careful as I can sense the signs and I'm DELIBERATELY ignoring the messages in my inbox from Bitch..just can't face them right now. She's not delegating; she's dumping. Bitch. I will get things sorted before the end of the week..but not tonight. I remained utterly professional about Bitch Two and her several bin bag loads of 'stuff' she's not removed.
To be fair, there are other things more pressing. Budding Vet in theatre tomorrow, not my usual favourite drama type of theatre!! The medical one. I have to wake her in fifteen minutes to feed her! That's definitely different to 'when I was a girl!!!'
Then, she has to be woken AGAIN just before 6am for her last drink. I'll be needing the bed more than her!
I worry more about tomorrow than she.
Old flames flickering again...G has been in touch and wants Thursday night for 'old times'. We talk well together and I may...depends..family first. But I need company of warm arms and to feel tenderness and compassion.
Beautiful words from FF. Our world is safe and beautiful and that comforts me.
I'm now ignoring frantic France. I really need a secretary!
The Director has another audition arranged....next week.
I do believe I will attend.
Now off to make a midnight feast, for one.
Goodnight.