Why is it I dream so vividly?
They haunt me for days and then I remember the dream again within another.
Why is it I yearn for touch and love so much?
It consumes me.
Why is it I cannot be a 'normal' person? A 'normal' wife?
It disturbs me.
Why is it I attract so much hatred from 'Bitch' and so much disloyalty from Dram?
It poisons me.
Why is it I allow this to consume me sometimes?
It eats my soul.
Why can I not write a masterpiece?
It frustrates me so much.
Why can I feel so weak and so fragile that I'm frightened I will break forever?
It scares me and makes me feel so weak.
Why can I not return the loyalty of a loving husband?
It bewilders me.
Why can I not sleep so peacefully?
It exhausts me.
Why are my tears falling now onto the keyboard as I write this?
Why is this?
Why is all of this?
Why do I need to know all the answers anyway?
Why do I need?
Why do I?
Why?
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- 2008-06-23 @ 00:26:36
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Prettyintelligentprincess
- 2008-06-23 @ 09:59:32
Thank you Ellen...I did not cry much...just too much self pity...'tis all!
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SeasideMan
Pro - 2008-06-23 @ 00:42:23
Do you love your husband?
Tom.-
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Prettyintelligentprincess
- 2008-06-23 @ 09:58:49
Just not even going down this route Tom...just not the right time and I feel emotionally a little fragile as the old Building Of Betrayal scenario is beginning to simmer again. It triggers a great deal of insecurity within me..
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SeasideMan
Pro
- 2008-06-23 @ 10:00:18
OK, it was probably an unfair question anyway.
Sorry.
Tom.-
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Prettyintelligentprincess
- 2008-06-23 @ 10:13:56
It's okay...don't worry about it... x
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pip big hugs.. draw a line step over it and move forward always move forward...OxO dont go back over the line or i will come and kick your backside..
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Prettyintelligentprincess
- 2008-06-23 @ 09:54:41
Line drawn....and I am moving on, I just know she's up to her old tricks again.
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every second you think about her means that she is winning!!...get her out of your head and you will be on top!!
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Prettyintelligentprincess
- 2008-06-23 @ 16:48:09
As soon as I get back there and conduct myself in the professional manner I do...I will be fine. It is this time away that offers moments in which to dwell. But thanks anyway Jack x
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Please don't cry.........x