Well, finally I told France that I did not wish to see him or have contact. He was so lovely and kind about it and said how I would 'always have something of him,'...I breathed a sigh of relief that 'something' could not be STD related! He wants to always be my friend. I've deleted him. I need more powerful passion from a man who wishes to fulfil and satisfy me.
G: finally, he resigned and his letter was utterly dreadful compared with the one I drafted for him; yet let that be the case. He relocates soon, up to Edinburgh I believe and has inferred he wants a raunchy shag for old times' sake before he departs. Well...tough. I can't really be bothered and he is selfish still; he has not apologised for saying such utterly paranoid things last week or the week before, so he can have his raunchy shag with someone else. And there will be someone else, have no doubt.
Mr Hotel has become quiet. This is always to be expected you understand; a high drop out rate is something you should expect from the very nature of this type of pursuit. I will keep his details for now, yet he is no longer luring me into his sexual web.
There are but two....a rather local chap who is a lttle too familiar and calls me 'sweetheart'.....ugh...his attitude towards the sex part is fine, but that is ironically too familiar...it has turned me off already; the other chap...well a younger man...similar profession yet this is the one who lives literally at the other end of the country or out of the country....depending on his circumstances...however, hugely desirable, fun and exciting....however, I will wait and be patient....

I have four weeks to secure the details of my next bedtime fun companion!!!
It's all in the planning.....