If only I could not think of sex...so much...
If only I did not have to feel my underwear getting so wet today.
At one point, I was worried I may have pelvic floor problems! Yet, when I checked earlier this evening, I examined my underwear closely...and there was definitely the evidence to suggest I had been experiencing the after effects of my sexy play this morning...and not a bladder problem.
I can remember the exact moments as I felt the moisture...warm and, at times, alarming.
If only I felt happy as a 'normal' married woman.
If only I was happy with my 'lot'...
But...is once since December as a married woman enough to be thankful for in the marital bed? Two minutes or thereabouts...
My own orgasms are longer; my own exploration is longer; my own body is far more delightful. Therefore, I stray into the illicit underworld of smiles and sex and intelligent conversation...so much more civilised and so much more delicious and engaging....
As a woman, I feel I am judged more; misunderstood more; would be banished more...
Never do I believe I will change...I have always been who I am and yet...if my perfect marital world had not been shattered within a year of the wedding day..things may have been so different.
If only..
SquarePeg1975
This is such a common problem. I should know, having had more than one wife before I got married... Once since December is, of course, not enough and you should seek more. But you should include your husband in that decision, otherwise married life is based on secrets - not a good position, the road to hate and sadness or worse still respectable indifference. If you turned to your husband and talked about it and gave him no choice he might respond or perhaps just set you free. It might tweek his testosterone and rekindle something lost. He might give you so much more than the men you write to us about. A common mistake made by women is to be too forward in demanding sexual contact. Nothing is more of a turn off than a woman that always directly takes the initiative. Instead, try seducing him indirectly and bringing out the hunter instinct in him. Change your hair, wear more suggestive clothes but maintain your distance. Arouse his instinct but wait for him to make the move...
I think I can guess at one thing which may have gone wrong which is neither his fault or yours. Men desire variety in terms of partners. It gets to the point where sex with the same woman, no matter how good, is no more exciting as a prospect than watching something interesting on TV and yet, if he got past that feeling and did the deed, he'd enjoy it very much more than perhaps even he had expected. So you need to offer variety and tweek his hunter instinct and perhaps then you won't have to wait until next December to sleep with the man who is, ultimately, your soul mate, albeit adrift and far from you right now...