I cried tonight.

Not sure why...but the pain welled up inside the spaces next to my heart and pushed upwards so hard,

water fell out of my eyes..

in droplets.

My silence must have made Royal Scot feel confused..
we were having a chat and I just lost the time...

My words fell onto the page for Jones and I felt deep sadness and anger and confusion and stupidity...

..I mean I am a 40 year old woman and I STILL have not got my life sorted out where I feel calm and sensible and without desire or need.

Is this just me?

Surely, I should be the content little wife and mother?

I really am crap at both...